contracted domestic roles now confuse
confusing fear into angry blinded sadness
sadly falling down to me I abuse
abusive mental lies punish me to madness
maddening loneliness sweeps away my life
a labyrinth of feelings isolate myself
selfishness builds me up only to hide
hiding changes, denying words spoken dearly, hard truths felt.
feeling now I have already died
reflections of what was me fading fast
reasons to worry about my next breath allude
allusive conscious plagues my days
daily manufactured amnesia pushes me to exclude
excluding those I love existing in a haze
closer I slip into melancholy
pictures prove only to fuel the flame of hate
hatred toward extended arms
arming myself to endless concerning prate
prating illogically back to intoxicating chemical charms
disremembering my life I close my eyes…